When my body and I disconnect: How I regain balance
July 20, 2014
Once there was a scared and self conscious girl, who was completely out of touch with her body. There was no copperation between her emotional needs, physical needs and spiritual needs, they were jumbled and confused. All she felt was a never ending need to be thinner, smarter or more popular. I felt all of these things because I had holes in my life, like we all do. The problem was I used food like spackle up those holes and it left me feeling like a bottomless pit of hunger.
I worked on myself to discover each of my individual needs, and how to address each need appropriately, so that could find and sustain deeper happiness. As I did this, with healthy clean eating, my weight normalized and I have maintained my weight for 12 years, moving to a new country, four children, going to back to school and starting my own business.
Here is an amazing tool to see where your true needs are right now.
Step 1: Place a dot in each section closer to the center if it feels less fulfilled and more to the outside of the section if you feel fulfilled.
Step 2: Connect the dots and see where you are out of balance.
This is usually enough for me to adjust my needs and organize my time and attention. This Summer has been different. I am in a War Zone. The stress is crazy.
I know exactly what is making me feel off balance and disconnected from my body and my hunger.
So how do I deal?
Step 1: Clean up my eating. I began a juice and whole foods cleanse to stop the rocket attack, ice cream binge cycle.
Step 2: Accept the my hunger is not food related. I am starting to track my eating again this week, until the war is over and we return to school.
This step is important because I usually do not track what I eat, I just listen to my body concerning portion size. Because I try to keep my life balanced, I know that hunger is hunger and not stress, loneliness, exhaustion or anger.
The last time I felt so disconnected from my body was after giving birth to my third child. The sleep deprivation then was so bad that I also returned to tracking, because my own internal clock was completely untrustworthy.
Step 3: Stop Tracking. Tracking your food is not a lifestyle. It is a tool to balance your physical needs with your quality fuel. It helps you separate your physical needs from your emotional ones. Then you need to take off the training wheesl, despite the fear of falling and ride!
This means continuing to work on the circle of life balance scale to change what can be changed and accept what is out of your control. I check in this scale monthly, instead of a bathroom scale and it was helped me recongize that answer is not in my food alone, but in my ever changing life.
So how to do I track? I have used weight watchers online around $50 for 3 months, and calorie count .com FREE.
Weight Watchers Online
Amazing APP with recipes A lot of useless emails
Community Support expensive
Easy to count points A lot f marketing for unhealthy processed products
type and track
Calorie Count Online
Good APP harder to navigate site
Recipes online A lot of requests for paid upgrade
More to count, calories, fat, protein fiber
type and track
This summer has been a real challenge for me spiritually and in my home environment from the stress. No matter what challenges come our way, they are always an opportunity to learn more about our own limits and how to surpass them.
My next blog post will be from our family vacation. So Summer on! Try the circle exercise to find where your hunger is really stemming from.